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byanger-a-deactivated20200110:
""you are my sunshine" ( i'm ready for pain ok )"

dying meme ( NOT accepting )

he said something to her once, when they had first met. she
was pestering him into becoming friends with her, as she did
with most, & he had told her that he didn’t want to be
friends with her because she would end up LEAVING like
anyone else he had come close to had. ironic, now, as he lays
across her lap & coughs up BLOOD & she can’t help the small
smile because he will be the one leaving this time & she kept her
promise of always staying with him. she won’t mention any of
this, of course, only holds him closer as his breathing slows &
her tears fall to his chest.

‘i’m… nico, i’m sorry.’

& now her tears are falling heavily to his chest as she leans over
him & watches his breathing come to a slow. she has been trying
to stay STRONG for him, for surely she could keep her tears
contained until she was alone, but it proves   IMPOSSIBLE as his
eyes shut & the once DEATH GRIP on her hand comes to only
featherlight touch.   & as she watches him die, as she notices the
gentle BEAT of his chest slow to a stop, the tears only flow faster
past her cheeks & to his shoulder and she lifts him to her chest.
she stays like that for a moment,holding his LIFELESS body to her
chest & sobs into him.   & as her sobs turn to only a small
hiccup & as she presses a kiss to nico’s temple before she leaves,
she only finds herself wishing she could take his place in death.